In less than two weeks I turn 30.
Starting a new year as well as a new decade of my life has me in a rather reflective mood.
In the past ten years Noah and I have gotten married, moved six times, had four children, been unemployed, worked nights, been on WIC, racked up and paid off debt, started homeschooling, lived in a bus and built a house, in addition to other personal periods of challenge and growth.
And that’s just off the top of my head.
It’s been a very… turbulent period of time for us and I don’t think that it’s quite how most people of my generation spend their twenties.
I’m hopeful that this next year (and decade!) brings a lot more stability and time to regroup and allows us to be more intentional with our time rather than simply putting out fires and reacting to situations as they occur. Looking back, it seems like it’s been ten years of almost sheer survival mode. But, hey – we survived! And the times when I was clinging to the precipice of sanity with barely the tips of my fingers, I was usually brought back from the edge by one of these three things:
1. My marriage. The state of my marriage affects every single other aspect of my life and if our foundation is strong, then we are pretty much unbeatable. We have gone through lots of unpleasant situations over the past decade, but I mean it when I say that I would rather face the worst with Noah than have the “best” with anybody else.
2. A strong support system. We are extremely fortunate to be surrounded by wonderful people who care for and invest in our family. Our extended family, friends and neighbors have prayed for us, spent time with us, and helped us when we needed it. Having a strong support system in place is a privilege that many people don’t have and I am very grateful.
3. Faith. It is sometimes difficult for me to write about my beliefs in a serious and public way, but I can’t leave out the fact that there have been so many times over the past ten years where the only credit that can be given as to why things didn’t go horrifically wrong or why I didn’t lose my ever loving mind is simply due to the grace of a loving God. My relationship with God has definitely evolved and changed and grown since I was twenty. I have learned a lot more about what it means to me to be a Christian – as well as what it definitely does NOT mean – and I am still working out (with fear and trembling) how that relationship should be lived out in the real world with real people. Going through this process while raising four small children has been humbling, to say the least.
On that note, I am not sure whether or not I’ll be continuing to blog in the coming year. As much as I enjoy it, it is time consuming and expensive if I continue to pay for self-hosting, so there will probably be some kind of change occurring in the following month or so as I decide whether to switch over to a free hosting site, which would make a lot more sense for me at this point. I’ll keep y’all posted.
Have a lovely 2017.